Sunday, August 8, 2010

Une femme douce

My mother died yesterday, fifteen days after the death of my father. She passed her last six years immobile on a bed, totally paralyzed and almost unconscious, after the horrible stroke she had on 2004. Only her eyes were vivid all these years, the eyes who gazed me, with her unbelievable tenderness, every single day since then, when I was visiting her, for an hour or less every day. I was seeing my mother dying day after day after day, for six years long.

Fifteen days ago, my father died first in the adjacent room of their house. I am sure she understood what happened, she was very anxious after this. Two days later, I disappeared myself from her house, I could not visit her anymore, because of my broken foot. At that moment, she maybe felt that everything was over for her, that the persons to whom she totally devoted her life had left for ever. She died peacefully in her sleep, a few days later, at age 81. She was kind and tender all her life long, her life was love and devotion, nothing more, nothing less.

I lost my mother and I am unable to cry now. That is the most awful.

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

Amazing story! Thank you for this

Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry to hear you story mate. This makes me realize that for those who's still got their parents ought to be nice to them since if it's not you who cares and protecting your parents, who else?

My mom and dad still alive and healthy. But as a son, I'm still lack of everything...

I hope I can make them happy before they leave this world.

Kevin said...

This is shocking news for anyone who's following your trading and life. Just wish everything get better with you from now on. Take care.
Kevin

Sparrow FX said...

A very sad news. Be strong...

I still have my mother but lost my grand'ma and 12 days later my father went.

It was fast and my brother, my mother and myself were under complete shock. Exeption of the funeral, I didn't cry. My mother neither. I don't think it is very important. Everyone lives this pain in a different way. What is important is that we were there for them during their lives.

Toutes mes pensées t'accompagnent en ces moment douloureux...

Ton élève,
Sparrow FX

Ingvar said...

Please accept my condolences mate.
It's so hard and painful to lose parents...
But life continues...

Anonymous said...

Sometimes that life is hard, sorry, not better express my feelings of support to you.

Un abrazo.

Justin said...

I am so sorry to hear this.

My own father has passed away also, and i know it must be a very painful time.

But I hope that your parents are happy that they are together again.

Take care Forexbird.

Justin

Anonymous said...

please accept my condolences, again, i know nothing anyone says can do anything for the pain that resides in one's heart after losing a parent.. take care

Frank said...

Sorry to hear that. May their souls rest in eternal peace.

Manjot Singh said...

May your parents rest in peace my friend...its a painful time and you are so right in explaining that we got to make the life of our parents better and happy :) thanks a lot for the education.

Regards

Manjot

Wu-Wei said...

I think maybe you've been grieving for your mum for 6 years, which probably explains why no tears came. In some way it's almost like she was waiting for your dad. Hard going on you to lose both of them at the same time though - I wish you all the best.

Anonymous said...

Its so sad..
I dont have words to condole with u..
May the departed rest in peace.
Just as every dark cloud has a silver lining, i pray for the cheers and smiles back on ur face...
God bless u with strength and tranquility..
with u,
King Singh.

NightyhawK said...

Loosing both parent within 15 days seems to be more horrible than anyone could ever imagine.

Trader32 said...

Very sorry to hear this.

Thanos said...

I just came back from holidays and read this post.

I m very trully sorry to hear that my dear friend.

Ειλικρινά Συλλυπητήρια that should be a really hard period for you. Stay strong.

Thanos

The forexbird said...

thank you ALL for the compassionate words. In the past i used to think that the consolation from others is not very important.Then i lost my parents and now I know I was wrong.. Thank you again..

G said...

I have just looked at every post you have made from the start of this blog and then I read ...kind, tender, love, devotion.

It made me stop, pause and be moved. You have painted you mother in a beautiful picture of words.

I lost my Mum 7 months ago aged 89, confined to bed for 2+ years and like I could say of her....kind, tender, love, devotion. I hope your heart is healing and pain of missing is gradually becoming less. Thank you for sharing this.....G

The forexbird said...

G,

Thank you for the kind words. We are in the same boat as you see.. I hope your heart is healing too. Life moves forward for allof us who stay alive.. That's life..